learning

It’s been a crazy couple of weeks.  So, naturally I’ve had little time to update my blog.  I think the absence has been good as I have had time to reflect on some things that I may have been more apt to post about had I a properly functioning computer.  I tend to be an overly transparent person, which I think has some value.  However, I think some circumstances have showed me that I need to be a better gatekeeper.  I won’t go into details, since that would be opening a gate I’m trying to gaurd.  That said, I do want to share what God is teaching me through some things, because it can be a mutual benefit.  Gatekeepers don’t keep all things out, they are just selective, right?  I’m learning the value of  quiet trust in the Lord and in letting Him fight for me.  I’m understanding more that our struggle really isn’t against flesh and blood, even when the channel is flesh and blood! Our struggles are with the rulers and principalities of the world.  I’m learning to lean more on God and let Him be my encouragement in a discouraging  world.  I’m learning that if the world puts me down, that the world is putting down what God has created me to be.  That is freeing.  I’m free to be the person God has designed me to be and to live under that conviction as it aligns with scripture.  And, I really feel empowered by that!  I’m learning to encourage others in their journeys as well, by acknowledging their uniqueness.  In reading a selection from Susan Hunt’s By Design, I stumbled across this quote, which affirmed many things I have been thinking about: …” each of us should render admiration, appreciation, and affirmation to our sisters who are living out this design [the helper design] in their relationships and circumstances.  The culture is against us.  We are swimming upstream.  Let’s not leave one another out there with no helpers.  There is too much Kingdom work to be done.”   I feel God is calling me to be an encouragement to my sisters, and not to worry about where my encouragement will come from.  I also feel a renewed vigor for my calling.  In the past couple weeks, I feel more assured about the path we are taking, about my roll in our family, and about my philosophy in carrying this out.  While, I know I’m far from perfect, I feel that God is letting me know that I am on the right track.  I’m seeing evidence of it with my kids.  I want to end with this poem as it resonates with me right now.  I have loved it for awhile now, but every time I read it, it is like discovering it anew.  It fits where I am right now…the end…gate closed.

If by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too:

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or, being lied about, don’t deal in lies,

Or being hated don’t give way to hating,

And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;

If you can think-and not make thoughts your aim,

If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster

And treat those two imposters just the same:

If you bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,

And stoop and build ’em up with worn out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings,

And never breathe a word about your loss:

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them:”Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with Kings-nor lose the common touch,

If either foes nor loving friends can hurt you,

If all men count with you, but none too much:

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds’ worth the distance run,

Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,

And-which is more-you’ll be a Man, my son!

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Comments

  1. You are one of my main encouragers through Christ’s strength!!

  2. kimmyskids says:

    Thank you Misty….it’s mutual!

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